We were both sober, both living on the same block in the Los Angeles neighborhood of Echo Park. You’re actually an artist. . . . It literally doesn’t matter what you look like.’ ” “I have dieted like crazy over the last 10 years,” she explains, “trying to fit into the stereotype of, like, ‘hot pop star.’ Somebody did say, ‘You don’t have to be a model.

Tree trunk, tree trunk, fat fuck, fat fuck, tree trunk, tree trunk, loser, loser, fat fuck, loser, fat fuck, fat fuck.’ What does that monologue sound like today? “Um, mostly, ‘Fat fuck, fat fuck, fat fuck. But years of therapy and medication and 12-step meetings have not entirely quieted the internal monologue that helped drive her to drink and drugs.

And she’s overcome more than her share of hurdles to get where she is today, including alcoholism, bipolar disorder, an autoimmune disorder and a suicide attempt (more on all that in a minute). She’s penned more than 100 pop songs for artists like Beyoncé, Britney Spears, Perry and Rihanna, whose “Diamonds” hit Number One. She has a huge, raw voice that creaks and breaks as if teetering on the edge of a cliff, or her sanity. She’s a songwriter and singer in equal measure, a famous hitmaker who’s more comfortable behind the scenes. Stardom may not have come naturally to Sia, but she’s built a career that’s unique in modern pop. Hear Sean Paul and Sia Team Up on Club-Ready Single 'Dynamite' “It’s an interesting process, dating at 42.” “I probably go on two or three dates before I say, ‘Hmm, I don’t think this is my person,’ ” she says. She’s trying to date with the same measured control she applies to her professional life. She dated filmmaker Erik Lang for two weeks before they got engaged in 2014. In the past, Sia has been trusting to a fault, jumping feet-first into love. “It was very funny, and it was great practice. “I went on a couple of dates, and they were nice,” says Sia, who grew up in Australia but has lived in Los Angeles for about seven years. Eventually, she might say, “I’m actually also a pop star called Sia.”

When a potential date asks what she does for a living, she’ll say she’s a writer.

Not that anyone recognizes her although she’s scored hits like “Chandelier” (1.9 billion YouTube views and counting) and “Cheap Thrills” (which made her one of only a handful of women in their forties to have a Number One hit), she has for years obscured her face with an oversize blond wig whenever she performs. She doesn’t use her real name, but she does post real photos of herself on the apps. This being 2018, that means using apps like Tinder and Bumble.

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